#IamaChristian

I feel pretty beaten down today after last night.  I am so tired of being sick.  It was so bad last night that I unloaded on my family.  I just cried and said things that I didn't mean. 
     What has been going through my mind?  Is this okay to be like this on occasion when I have had enough?  The answer is Yes and No.  No because I could have not called my husband frustrated.  My kids did not need to hear me cry.  I was too tired and over not being well enough to function.  Yes, because life as a Christian isn't going to always be fun time with Jesus.  Things are going to go wrong and people are going to be mad.  Life will suck on occasion.  There is a solution.
     Forgiveness.  First of all, saying your sorry to God and those you love isn't the worst thing in the world. The thing we must remember is that saying your sorry means that it isn't about you.  Those words can come without an answer in return.  Secondly, We have Jesus and if he can forgive us for being total poop butts then we can ask others for forgiveness and forgive ourselves.  Its funny how much we as humans beat ourselves up.  We need to get over it and move on. Thirdly, last night was last night. No I don't feel better and all I want to do is cuddle in my bed, but that will come.  
     In conclusion,  everything is going to be fine.  I will get better and this cookie that I am about to munch down on will taste a little sweeter.  Why?  Because Jesus is awesome and he forgives.