I am FAT

There has been a movement as of late to call women who are plus size the more PC term curvy.  I applaud those women who can go out there and be loud and proud.  The person of me can not do this because the way I look and present myself reflects on my family as well.  I have curves, but I am FAT.
       I know that I am very lucky.  My husband, parents, children and most importantly God will love and accept me for who I am unconditionally.  I can not live like this anymore.  I recently had a hip replacement and if I don't change my ways then I will be back where I was a year ago.  My family nor I can do that again.  I start over once again tonight.  It is actually 1:43am and I am going to need help from God.